Today I’ve Decided to Kill a Woman

Today, after reflecting a lot about it, I’ve decided to kill a woman. Murder can be as complicated as living so, following my habits, I prepared a list of things that will help me to do it more effectively.

10 Things I Need to Do to Kill The Woman I am

1.- To kill a sluggish woman, I will take an emetic to shake myself a little and make me see that the way in which I have lived so far has been pleasant, but insufficient. My achievements has put me in a comfort zone where my talents are easily to manifest and I forgot to challenge myself. I’ll follow my intuition and let me flow to new books, places, people and patterns.

2.- To kill a proud woman, I’ll exorcise the demon of pride that lives within me, crouching in the shadows, occuping the gaps of my soul, waiting for a moment of frustration, vulnerability, misunderstanding or full adulation to go out and devour others. I’ll fill those gaps with humility, patience and temperance, because everything in life is fleeting.

3.- To kill a fearful woman, I will summon the ghosts of my past. All of them. I will open widely to them the door of my life, to see the lessons they bring me under a bright new daylight. I’ll stop projecting my past fears on others and instead, I’ll talk openly about my experiences, because in that way I can help others.

4.- To kill an insecure woman, I will change the magic mirror in which I have reflected so far. I will rescue the sweet, tender, spontaneuos, loving and caring woman sleeping behind the glass that separates the mind and heart. I won’t say sorry again for the times my heart spoke out of control. Rather, I will empower the voice of my heart and master the art of speaking without words.

5.- To kill a severe woman, I’ll break every bone with the hammer of flexibility. Thus, I will realize that I need not always be right, in control, have the correct answer, the day made. I’ll give myself permission to be an unapologetic crazy lunatic in love with life, showing my weaknesses and contradictions and leaving no room for shame.

6.- To kill a unsatisfied woman, I will abuse the pills of gratitude. They are highly addictive. I will give thanks until my jaws hurt. Gratitude for what it was and what was not. Gratitute because everyone I’ve met in life gave me something of his/herself, for those who stayed for a moment, a season or a reason.

7.- To kill a selfish woman, I’ll electroshock the idea that the value of what I do, say and feel must be agreed for others. So far I have abused, perhaps unconsciously, of the patience, time and friendly feelings of some people. So I have become a person who was once lovable to one who’s often annoying A discharge of 20,000 volts of humbleness every 6 hours should definitely kill this bad habit.

8.- To kill a procastinating woman,  I will strangle lazyness with focus and accountability. Not enough to identify my potential and establish my mission, my duty is to take care of that and focus my attention on a plan to take me to expand my talents. If I want to contribute to a better world, I have to be able to make myself better, without quoting excuses.

9.- To kill a resentful woman, I’ll mow the pain with forgiveness and acceptance. I’ll leave the guilt and revenge. I will accept my soul, like all souls having a human experience, has dents, wounds and scars. I abandon the habit of blame. The greatest act of justice is to forgive and forgive myself. My honor lies in my ability to be honest.

10.- To kill the woman who is very hard on herself, I will throw myself to the deep vortix of compassion in a free fall without the rope of perfectionism, sustained only by my own strength.

Never forget to be always patient. There’s no perfect murder and probably I have to try many times until succeed :)

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